The Inner Workings of...

I feel so sick. And I dont think it's from the ear infection really. The infection is almost *almost* gone. But I can't walk two feet without getting nauseated. Anything I consume makes me feel really sick.

I think it's a combination of all the pills they have me on. Augmentin antibiotics, repliva iron pills, lortab 10's for pain, glucophage for pcos/diabetes, and I've started taking Phenergan for nausea.

Jonathan said the nausea is probably my equilibrium being messed up from the infection, but if the infection is almost gone shouldn't that be healing up too? :(

I'm tired of feeling like I'm gonna throw up everytime I move. Yuck. I hate bodily functions :/

I remember when I was a teenager all I had to hold onto was hope. Had I known the way I'd end up, I probably would have tried a little harder to kill myself. I've let them take everything from me and they don't even know it. The only thing they have failed to successfully brainwash me about is my relationship with Jonathan. He's going to be my saving grace, I know it.

I found my camera and decided to take some pictures. I took pictures of the house because my mom wants to send them to her friend in Oklahoma. They have completely redone this house. It was built in the 50's and looked NOTHING like this when they bought it. I think it's adorable now. It's a little messy right now though, so please overlook it. We've all been depressed (for various reasons) and nobody feels like picking up. It's not filthy or anything, just messy. Oh and there are pictures of my dog and Mom's dog. My dog is the black one, (Mattie, schnoodle 2 years old) and Mom's is the white/cream coloured one (Buffy, obese [35lbs when she's only supposed to be 5lbs lol], mean, itchy, and blind, 14 years old).

About the house, they paid 55,000 and it's worth 61,000 now because of the renovations. They put in 3400 dollars into redoing it. They bought the house in 2006. Also, they are drunk as fuck in the pictures, as you can see from the wine bottles and whiskey bottles etc.

*Oh, and there are no pictures of me because I am disgusting looking at the moment*

( Home Sweet Dysfunctional Home )

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